Ben bu sessizli\u011fi \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum
\n\u015eakaklar\u0131mda \u0131l\u0131yan g\u00fcne\u015fi
\nG\u00f6zlerimde da\u011f\u0131lan g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc
\nAyaklar\u0131mda yar\u0131lan yollar\u0131
\nBen bu sessizli\u011fi \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn karga\u015falardan ayr\u0131lan<\/p>\n
Karanl\u0131k iyice d\u00fcnyan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne sinmi\u015fti. S\u0131zlanan so\u011fuk v\u00fccudumuza i\u015fleyerek yol almaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vakit kulenin i\u00e7erisine girdim. Elimi yazmaktan hissedemez hale gelmi\u015ftim. Bir s\u00fcre hareketsiz bekledim. Sonra yava\u015f yava\u015f a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130nsan\u0131n v\u00fccudu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcnce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri hareketleniyordu. Hareketleri dura\u011fanla\u015f\u0131nca v\u00fccudu \u00f6l\u00fcme s\u00fcr\u00fckleniyordu. Bu z\u0131tl\u0131klar bizi hayata ba\u011flayan en \u00f6nemli etkenlerdi. Hakk\u0131n vermi\u015f oldu\u011fu d\u00fczen bizi tekrar tekrar sorgulamam\u0131za vesile oluyordu. Bu sorgular\u0131 soyutla\u015ft\u0131ran beynin i\u00e7erisindeki dolamba\u00e7l\u0131 yollara ak\u0131l erdirmek her insan\u0131n hakk\u0131 de\u011fildi. Fakat yol varsa elbet k\u0131lavuzu mevcuttu. Hayatta bizi sadece kitaplardan ibaret kalmay\u0131p, g\u00f6rerek ya\u015fayarak okudu\u011fumuz bir k\u0131lavuzdu. Do\u011frular\u0131 ne kadar sezebilirsek \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yolculuk o kadar kolay bir hal al\u0131yordu. Yolcu yolunda gerek deyip \u0131s\u0131nan v\u00fccudum tekrar kalemle hayat buldu. \u00c7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131m notlar\u0131n aras\u0131na serpilen burnumdaki kan damlalar\u0131 bazen elime bula\u015f\u0131yor defteri komple kan edebiliyordu. Burnumdaki k\u0131lcal damarlarda \u00e7atlakl\u0131k olu\u015fu yazmam\u0131 bir an olsun duraklat\u0131yordu. Demi\u015ftim m\u00fccadele ruhu diye. Tutku ile harmanlanan ifadelerim, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlara bula\u015fan m\u00fcrekkep lekesi ne kadar okunakl\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fckmese de bir eme\u011fin vesilesiydi.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ben bu sessizli\u011fi \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum \u015eakaklar\u0131mda \u0131l\u0131yan g\u00fcne\u015fi G\u00f6zlerimde da\u011f\u0131lan g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Ayaklar\u0131mda yar\u0131lan yollar\u0131 Ben bu sessizli\u011fi \u00f6zl\u00fcyorum B\u00fct\u00fcn karga\u015falardan ayr\u0131lan Karanl\u0131k iyice d\u00fcnyan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne sinmi\u015fti. S\u0131zlanan so\u011fuk v\u00fccudumuza i\u015fleyerek yol almaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vakit kulenin i\u00e7erisine girdim. Elimi yazmaktan hissedemez hale gelmi\u015ftim. Bir s\u00fcre hareketsiz bekledim. Sonra yava\u015f yava\u015f a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130nsan\u0131n v\u00fccudu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcnce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri hareketleniyordu. Hareketleri […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":6735,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","template":"","meta":{"inline_featured_image":false},"product_cat":[1019,1033],"product_tag":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-6734","1":"product","2":"type-product","3":"status-publish","4":"has-post-thumbnail","6":"product_cat-edebiyat","7":"product_cat-roman","8":"pa_boyut-135-x-195-cm","9":"pa_dil-turkce","10":"pa_sayfa-sayisi-572","11":"pa_yayin-tarihi-3-6-2023","12":"pa_yazar-mucahid-karacinar","14":"first","15":"instock","16":"sale","17":"purchasable","18":"product-type-simple"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product\/6734","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/product"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6734"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/6735"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6734"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"product_cat","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_cat?post=6734"},{"taxonomy":"product_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.arkaraf.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/product_tag?post=6734"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}